Turning the Tables

I used to hide this belief from people. There might be others out there that have done this as well. It is that kind of belief that either makes friends, makes enemies, or makes people think you are crazy. I believe that Satan and Demons exist, not the kind of belief that is “oh well they were around once” No, I believe that they can mess with you in many ways, I believe that they can posses a human and control their actions. I believe that they can wake you up in the middle of the night, I believe that they lead us away from God with the news, books, devices, TV, etc. The media is their most useful tool, and yet God still let us make it all.

I want to tell those of you who agree with me, how to turn the tables on these nightmares, these attacks, the people you see, and the demons. I am not trying to sell you something, and if you do not believe, then it will not work. This is for the people who have already accepted Jesus as their Savior, God as their Father, and the Holy Spirit as the Power of God. This is for the people who need to know how to defend themselves against the whiles of the devil. It is something that most people who believe on Him take for granted. The same way a man who can’t walk wishes he had treasured the times his legs did work. This is healing, it is prayer… it is devotion… it is love… it is a full surrender of your being to the Father.

You must pray as if you have never prayed before. Thank him for everything, including the little things. Beg him for protection, do not go to sleep until you have peace. Even if it keeps you up all night. Wrestle with God, be sincere, be willing to wait for your answers, tell him your troubles, your feelings, your emotions. There is never a worthless sentence in prayer. You will never get to know him if you do not let him deal with every side of you. You have to be vulnerable to his words, sight, understanding, rebuke, and love. Hold nothing back. Let your heart burn and the tears run, scream, yell, sing, do what you must to get it out. But in all things regarding prayer, start on your knees. You must surrender in honesty and sincerity. God cannot take hold of a man who holds onto his character, pride, opinions and so on. Ask him to block your mind off, to turn off the thoughts, to make things repulsive to you or appealing to you. You can literally ask anything of him. So do it, fight the enemy with it, take him down with the help of our Father.

There is something else I must add to this… when you surrender you must give up everything of yourself. What you want in life, how you imagine your life, you have to give up of yourself so much that you no longer love yourself; you love God so much that you allow him to change you into what he wants you to be. This is a really hard thing for one to do. I would know, as this was the reason it took so long for me to come to God of my own free will. I loved myself, I still struggle with this sometimes. Something we should remember when doing this are these words that apply to many things…

Before you heal someone, ask him if he’s willing to give up the things that made him sick.


You see, you have to be willing to give up the root of the issue, (Self). Paul was writing to one of the churches talking about the foundation of our belief (Jesus Christ). He was talking about the fact that we believe Jesus rose from the grave, that you have to die and be born again as he was, in water and in Spirit. In this chapter “1 Corinthians 15” Paul made these two important points about dying, He said, “I protest by your rejoicing which I have in Christ Jesus our Lord, I die daily.” 1 Corinthians 15:31. “For as in Adam all die, even so in Christ shall all be made alive.” 1 Corinthians 15:22 Paul is also not the only one who has talked about the flesh needing to die daily and how we are brought to life in Christ. C.S.Lewis said something of a similar nature concerning this…

Relying on God has to begin all over again every day as if nothing had yet been done.

C.S Lewis

You cannot rely on God and yourself, light cannot live in darkness. So to do what C.S.Lewis has described, we have to do what Paul has told us. We cannot truly be in a relationship with God if we do not give up ourselves unto death. I pray that God gives you all understanding of this and guides you on the path that you should go. May you all have a blessed weekend, I look forward to talking with you next time.


*This Girl*


Hello my friends,

I wanted to reflect with you all today on what God said about fear and worrying about tomorrow.

Ye shall not fear them: for the Lord your God he shall fight for you. Deuteronomy 3:22

Therefore I say unto you, Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on. Is not the life more than meat, and the body than raiment? Behold the fowls of the air: for they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they? Which of you by taking thought can add one cubit unto his stature? And why take ye thought for raiment? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin: And yet I say unto you, That even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. Wherefore, if God so clothe the grass of the field, which to day is, and to morrow is cast into the oven, shall he not much more clothe you, O ye of little faith? Therefore take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed? (For after all these things do the Gentiles seek:) for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things. But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof. Mathew 6:25-34

There has been a lot of things going on in everyones life lately. Whether it be emotionally, physically, mentally, family related, work related, or even government related. God reminds us that he has a plan for us.

And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28

He has called us for his purpose, he has a plan for our lives. We are not to fear anything, nor are we to wonder what will happen, but to have faith that he is God and that he will take care of every situation.

C.S. Lewis once said, “Look for yourself, and you will find in the long run only hatred, loneliness, despair, rage, ruin, and decay. But look for Christ, and you will find Him, and with Him everything else thrown in.”

We cannot make it through this life or any other without him. We desperately need him so much that even the man who know nothing searches for something to give him peace. But the only thing that will give you true peace is Christ. Paul mentioned in the bible that he dies daily. He had to sacrifice himself to God’s will daily because our flesh likes to forget that we gave up and gave it to God. It is only human nature for us to turn back to the alter and pick up the burden we had once laid down at the cross.

As a dog returneth to his vomit, so a fool returneth to his folly. Proverbs 26:11

That is us. Constantly turning back to our sin. Fear and worry is a sin if not laid before Jesus’s feet in prayer and asking for forgiveness. C.S. Lewis also said, “Relying on God has to begin all over again every day as if nothing had yet been done.”

So in this I ask that we all reflect, and stay in prayer. That we may make it through these hard times with Jesus by our side. I pray that God get the glory for my life and all of those who give theirs to Him. Amen


*This Girl*

Patience, Faith and Prayer

These two words go hand in hand “Patience and Faith. One must not live without the other. Both are not just merely words though, they are actions and feelings that must be a part of our everyday life to make a change. We have to instill them into our souls just as much as our heart for them to work in full effect.

Many times we have to wait for what God has for us, but if we do not have faith that he will do the right thing in the end or patience as we wait for hime to do what he said he would do, then we will never find peace, rest, and we might miss what he does.

My friends, we live in troubled times right now. Some of us more than others, I want to say I am sorry. I am sorry that we are suffering, but at the same time I am glad for us. For God does his greatest works in our greatest moments of weakness. Have hope brothers and sisters, we will get through this. But only with God helping us, guiding us, giving us peace & understanding; we must pray.

Prayer, it seems to be one of the most dreaded things to do for a christian. Even reading the bible, something we were founded off of seems to be a dread for christians. Brothers and sisters this is the time to get equipped, there is no time for fun and games. Look what is happening to our country! We have been on the fence in our christianity for far too long. Will you make a stand? Will you pray for the people who are burning buildings and killing lives? Will you pray for the police and other EMS personnel to have safety as they work? Will you pray that the government God has appointed will stand up to those who commit treason? Will you pray for the people who have lost their jobs? Will you pray for the kids who don’t know what school next year will look like? Will you pray that this racial fight will end?

People seem quick to say what they do not like and yet they are slow to pray. They are slow to get down on their knees before the only one that can change/fix this. They are slow to pray before the one that has the answer.

But even if you do not care about all of that. I want you to do one thing. I cannot make you, I can only ask that you do this earnestly and come back and testify if this helped you. So many people want to pray, but are unsure how to pray. They read the Lords prayer, and are still confused. That my friends, was me a few short months ago. I want to share what changed so that maybe you can try it. This is for anyone who struggles praying.

I want you to go somewhere no one can bother you, either every night or every morning. Start with once a day. I want you to just “show up”. Get on your knees, close your eyes. Don’t you dare pray with your eyes open, the flesh sees an opportunity to distract you by diverting your thinking to what you see. Close them tightly, try not to think of anything (this will take you a couple of times) Call out to him, whether you call him God, Father, Jehovah that’s fine. Just call out to him. Tell him that you do not know what you are doing, but that you’re here. Ask him to show your soul what to pray for. Pray for peace, pray for his help to pray. Tell him everything, he wants to hear it all. Tell hime your troubles, tell him your hopes and dreams, tell him about your friends. Something! But whatever you do, do not open your eyes and leave until you have a complete peace in your soul to get up and leave. The devil will try to talk you out of prayer saying, “It’s too late,” “You should really go to bed,” “Hanging out with family is more important,” “Why do you have to pray? It’s not like anyone else does,” “This can’t possibly help you,” etc… He knows exactly what to say to get you to leave. Don’t let him win.

I have found so much peace in prayer, I have found love I cannot find anywhere else, in prayer. I have found internal understanding in prayer. I have found abundant patience in prayer. I have found a peace in my heart that cannot be explained in prayer. I have lost most if not all of my anxiety with prayer. This is not a joke! It is freeing. And when I do not do it I feel a missing hole in me that cannot be filled by anything else. Please, heed my words and try. It will be worth every minute.

For those of you who read this, and do not do what I ask of you. I am sorry, I am sorry that I could not explain it in a way that would cause conviction to at least try. For you will never know what you have missed, you will never understand the peace and love I now have. The freedom I feel is liberating.

For those of you who read and try this. Please, share this with others. More need to understand the power of prayer that I speak of.

For those of you who know what I speak of and do it, keep going, and if you ever stop praying, start again. God will always forgive you and let you try again. I have missed days before and have come back repenting in tears for my soul was torn over it and he forgave me every time. If you let your spirit given by God guide you in your everyday path, one day you will never forget prayer and if you do you will feel your soul tear until you do it.

I love every single one of you. I hope this was of some help and that God gives you the conviction and drive to do what is necessary for the kingdom of God. Hallelujah, Amen.


*This Girl*

Know Thyself

Hello friends,

I want to apologize for not being here for you guys these past few weeks. I have been dealing with a lot, as I am sure you all have as well. I have been learning a lot of lessons over the past few weeks that I want to share with you guys.

Lesson 1: Be/Know yourself

This is a hard one to explain but I am going to try anyway.

The Bible talks about loving your neighbor as much as yourself; a person once told me that even though the bible says that, we have to keep in mind that we cannot love our neighbor, if we do not love ourselves as well. I am not talking about the narcissistic love that people seem to attempt to indulge in these days. I mean a kind of loving yourself so much that you get to the point were you’re comfortable with your “shortcomings” or “differences” as people like to call them. The way you might laugh too loud. The way you might be scared of spiders. The way you expect trust and faith in a friendship. The way you put your families needs over your own. The way you would work so hard to make everyone else happy that you forget about yourself. The way you dress. The way you act. The list goes on and on, the questions is… Do you even know yourself enough to love yourself.

So many people, especially young people are spending so much time hating on themselves or hating the things that make them “them”. Doesn’t it feel like your chasing your tail sometimes? In this mad circle for power or leverage over people, making it where the kind, innocent & loving people who might be insecure get walked all over. Notice that the ones who get walked all over are the people who are still trying to figure themselves out or they do not know how to stand up for themselves yet because they are to busy trying to make you happy.

I wish young people would spend the time to find out what they actually like and do not like. I wish they would spend time building their character instead of their instagram profile. How much time do we spend trying to be what we are not? Some of you may be thinking, but it is who I am. No, it is who you have made yourself to be. Put down the distractions, learn your values, what is important to you, what you want in your friends, where you might want to be in a few years. People have been spending so much time compromising who they are to be liked by people that everyone is just an internet profile walking around trying to get as many likes as possible. If you think about it, what we are really doing is just lying to everyone around us about who we are. I am not here for an argument, I am here to state facts, what I have learned, what I have gone through as a person. So many people stereotype and assume things that we actually are not only hurting those around us but we are hurting ourselves as well. It is just a vicious cycle that keeps on taking and never giving back.

For those who want to spend their early years on dating all the time, for those who change themselves to fit in the crowds or klicks of people who do not deserve to have you around, and anyone else who doesn’t spend time building themselves as a person and a character or who just doesn’t understand, I have some advice for you from some supposedly great people. I think their advice is pretty legit, so I am going to do my best to quote them.

My sister told me about this quote she found, I thought it was from Churchill but I couldn’t find it so I will sum up.

“If you look up at your circle of friends and are not inspired by them, then you need to get yourself new friends.”

There was of a father who gave his son his great grandfathers watch, he told the son that before he could keep it he needed to take it to an antique shop, a pawn shop, and an antique museum to see what they would all pay for the watch. The antique shop said they would pay $150 because it had a dent in it, the pawn shop said $10 because it was so old and the Museum offered over $5,000 saying they would love to have it in their collection of war antiques. When the son went back and told the father this the father said, stay with people who value you for what you’re worth like the museum that valued at $5,000 the watch even though it was old.

Know that you are worth it, your value is so much greater than you even give yourself credit for. God loves us so much that he has the hairs on our head numbered and he got to know us before our mothers even met us. How wonderful, to know that someone has loved me from the start. Even if you are alone in your opinion, you will never be alone or without love for the Father never leaves us. If you truly believe that your value is not that great, then do something to change that. Learn how much our Father loves us by reading his word, do things outside of your comfort zone in faith that God is with us when we are scared, learn to enjoy your own company, learn what is important to you. You cannot love anyone if you do not love yourself. You cannot love your family, your friends, your spouses, your children, no one; because you yourself do not know what it means to love. No one should love you more than you, aside from God (he knew you first) 😉 .

I hope this helps you guys, I can talk further about it but I do not want to bore you anymore. I pray that you are all safe and well during this interesting time. May the Father “God” have the glory for everything, Amen.


*This Girl*

P.S. I want to give credit to the artist for this wonderful art, her name is Jessi Ford. You can see more of her art on instagram, she does not post often but you can find her under the name rangerjessi!

COVID-19 = Churches closed

Wow, things seemed to have changed over night friends…It was not that long ago that we all went out on spring break thinking all would be well with the world. I have heard a lot of supposed facts throughout all this. Working multiple jobs I have sat in meeting after meeting. In my personal life we sit in on discussion, after discussion. Go into store after store that has different policies, thoughts, and ways of handling this mess. It is hard to say what I agree with and disagree with sometimes. Sometimes I look at it and I have to chuckle to myself, if I did not laugh a little I do believe that I would just cry. Cry in pain for what I see happening and possibly coming. Some people fight each other, and over what? Toilet paper, hand sanitizer and flour? What has our country turned into?

If this post I found on facebook was remotely true at all China has got toilet paper in their country and they have had the virus longer than all of us! Our churches are closed, My God He is probably looking down on us in shame and disappointment. Our churches can’t even be there for their own congregation! This shows our faith Pastors! Deacons! Church People! That is what our faith means to us. People say, “Oh, but it’s contagious!” If it truly is a virus then there will never be anything to stop it, it will alway have to run its course through the body. Oh Holy Father how ashamed I am and they must be. Sense when did the government have the right to shut our services down. The first amendment tells us the government can’t shut us down! Some of y’all may be thinking “well, This Girl they still have those TV preachers and all” They are only there for the money! They are not there for your soul. If I was to be straight and completely honest it has been years sense I have seen a preacher preach for your soul. Talking about how if your going to talk that walk we should be walking it! A preacher who not only says what he believes but also does it himself! One who is there because God put him there and he is on a mission to send you to Jesus so that He can save your souls.

I was talking to my physical therapist one day, I told him that I am a firm believer in the fact that everything happens for a reason. You just have to be open enough to see it. It might not be for you, not everything happens for just us. It may be to meet someone, for someone to see how you walk. It could be that there was a life lesson in it, it could simply be God telling Satan like in Job; see I told you so he/she didn’t forsake me. We have to be humble, wise and patient to get an answer sometimes. Occasionally the answer will not come to you for months; and that is fine too. Live in faith. I’ll give you people an example…

I was working the last couple of days for the school year (last year) and I was told I might be sent to another school. I ignored this information hoping that it would not be me they were sending away. Just to get a letter in June saying how they could not use me at my school any longer and were moving me. They asked me where I wanted to go and sent me a list of options. I was torn, I spent so much time and tears over that small piece of paper telling me where I could go. At some point I was on the phone with the lady who sent me the paper asking for her opinion. Telling her that I prefer middle and high schoolers, wanted to stay with behavioral kids and why etc… There was this school in the list, I had only subbed there once before I had gotten in the district and it was a lockdown facility for those kids who could not handle a normal school environment. My heard was lead to go there. But even if I picked that one I was not guaranteed the job because I had to pick at least 10 options for the district to pick from. Eventually ( at the last possible moment) I sent in the paper work with that lockdown school as my first option. Everyone was telling me not to go even my old teacher at the school I was let go from. I prayed and prayed scared stiff as to what would happen to me, in faith that God would do what he wanted with it and that I was no longer in control. I got a call several weeks before the next school year started. It was the same lady who was helping me pick where to go, I got the job at the lockdown facility. She said if I was being truly honest and that my heart was in it, no matter what, I would be happy there. Anyone I mentioned that school to would have a look of horror suddenly appear on their face. I often wondered why I was not one of those people. God has taken care of me from then on, I am happier there than I was at the old school. I truly love all of my staff and people over me. The children are challenged but truly wonderful and often misunderstood. And I still believe this after being yelled at by them, cursed at, called names, even watched a coworker get hit and a fire alarm pulled in the middle of winter. If we would all live in faith and love in Christ, we could all be as happy as I am in spirit, no matter the circumstances. I truly hope this information is helpful to you all and gives you a glimmer of hope. These are trying times especially socially and psychologically. May God keep our minds and hearts as we journey forward together.

God has carried my state through the largest earthquake we have seen in years this past school year, statewide fires this past summer, a flood up north during spring break and now this. I serve a mighty God and he will carry us through, but you must live in faith. Not just the understanding of faith be the action of faith as well, Amen.

If you want to see what God has to say on Faith read Hebrews…

Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen… Hebrews 11:1


*This Girl*

The Clay

Our lives with God have off and on been equated to a potter and his clay. I use to wonder and struggle about this analogy. I knew what I was told it meant, but at the same time, “What did it mean to me?” What a thought provoking question… you see I truly believe I have only recently made some sort of connection that could at all render me an answer, so I would like to share my thoughts on this subject with you. If you do not mind that is.

I have recently been struggling with some things. Some work related, some home related, others are related to me and my walk with the Father. I have inadvertently realized how wrong we are as humans. You know how you know something in your head, but you do not know it in your heart (the true meaning that is). Yeah, that is how I felt when I realized the answer. This is something I will endeavor to explain but truly, God will have to revel it to you on your own time.

You see, I work with people who have been abused or abandoned in some shape form or fashion. As a matter of fact I have worked with these people for going on two years. The people I work with are people who either did not fit in the normal program of things or felt a connection to the people we care for in some shape, form or fashion. I have been trained to handle almost any given situation, but you cannot train the soul and spirit for the reality that hits you eventually.

Some of the things I realized is that we address people with such malice, wether intended or not we do. We decide we are right and they need to hear what we have to say or that whatever they are doing is not up to our standards and they must be dealt with. We even have the cold shoulder people who think that either what they have to say is too much for someone or that the person they should address is not worth their time. How shameful we are to be so rude to one another.

I have realized that my relationship with people or lack thereof, 9 times out of 10 is my fault. Most of the time I do not even mean what people perceive and assume. I have been told I am too hard on people, too black and white as others have put it. But it is time to call the kettle what it is “Black”. It is time to point to the real problem “Us”

God has been putting me through these very painful lessons and I will share some of them with you today.

  • Respect of persons
  • When to say no
  • Gluttony of something other than food
  • It is okay to be alone
  • Do not do it for them

These are only a few examples and letting God change these things about me is leaving me exhausted and concerned for the future because we are creatures of habit and we do not want to leave what we know to be our “Routine” or our “way of living”. It is like a turtle leaving its shell its scary at first, probably even scary until we get into the swing of things.

In respect of persons he is showing me how it is not my job to show someone how they should be. It is not my job to decide who, why, where, what, etc. I am only here to love, speak life and if at all given the chance, lead someone to the Father.

When to say no… when do we decide enough is enough, or rather too much is just that, too much. This one also leads in to the gluttony part of this, where we do not know when to stop. I am working three jobs while helping with my parents and doing church three times a week, the only day I have nothing to do is Sunday, and I do not even see that sometimes. That is a form of gluttony, too much of anything is not good for you.

It is okay to be alone… You do not need to satisfy your emotional needs by the comments and time with others. Learn how to enjoy your own thought process and company. Fine yourself in God and not in others. Because honey, if we do not love who we are, how do we expect others to love us for who we are?

Do not do anything for the fleshly human beings around you. Do not go to that school because they said so, do not wear that color because they said so, the list goes on. Do it because God said so! Do everything because the Father, Son, and the Holy Ghost said to and you will never, ever, go wrong. Paul says I went right and He told me to go left, I went left and He told me to go right. We will make mistakes, own them and then change em.

Do not be afraid of change, the Father has a plan for you and me. Embrace it, love it, live it. Because if you decide you are on this earth to glorify the Father then you will do just that. I pray that whatever God is working in you, you take it whole heartily and run with it. When you cannot run walk, if you can’t walk then crawl, but for goodness sake don’t you dare stop moving towards the Father. Do not do what Peter did and look away from Jesus because you will drown. You will drown so fast you won’t know what happened.

I pray that you all gain understanding and not be ignorant, amen. May you all have a blessed evening.


*This Girl*

World and Spirit

I had a conversation one time with a good friend of mine. We were trying to talk about levels of sin or rather if there were levels, maybe they were all just as bad as the other. We never got to finish this conversation, but if I could finish that conversation; what I am about to tell you is what I would tell him.

We spend so much of our day trying to compare our current world to the spiritual realm. It does not work. The bible says “flesh warreth against the Spirit.” We try to use things that we can sense with our 5 senses to explain things that cannot be sensed by anything other than the Spirit of God. We equate christianity to things like “Pilgrims Progress” and “Narnia”. We try to describe God as if he is some sort of fleshly king on a throne of gold. He has never even shown his face to anyone less they parish. Even Moses only saw his hind quarters in Exodus 33:17-23 it says…

” And the Lord said unto Moses, I will do this thing also that thou hast spoken: for thou hast found grace in my sight, and I know thee by name. And he said, I beseech thee, shew me thy glory. And he said, I will make all my goodness pass before thee, and I will proclaim the name of the Lord before thee; and will be gracious to whom I will shew mercy. And he said, Thou canst not see my face: for there shall no man see me, and live. And the Lord said, Behold, there is a place by me, and thou shalt stand upon a rock: And it shall come to pass, while my glory passeth by, that I will put thee in a clift of the rock, and will cover thee with my hand while I pass by: And I will take away mine hand, and thou shalt see my back parts: but my face shall not be seen.”

Spiritually, there are no levels to sin. In that scripture alone it talks about rebellion (which is just doing other then what you have been told) is just as bad as witchcraft or that being stubborn is just as bad as idolatry (which is not being faithful to your spouse). God says in 1 Samuel 15: 23… “For rebellion is as the sin of witchcraft, and stubbornness is as iniquity and idolatry. Because thou hast rejected the word of the Lord, he hath also rejected thee from being king.” Worldly, or in the flesh if you prefer there are levels, which is why certain crimes earn you jail and other crimes you just earn a ticket. My friend told me that you could tell there were levels of sin based on the fact that there are multiple consequences. Here on earth we have things like jail, torture, getting a ticket, in old times we had hangings etc. But in the spirit world I realized Hell is the only definite punishment. Sure on earth they have things happen like God taking out Sodom and Gomorrah with fire and brimstone (Genesis 19:24-25) or Ananias and his wife ( Acts 5:1-11)who passed away in the church for lying to the man of God. But those happened on earth, they were consequences for our own choices. Whereas the end consequence in the spirit realm is Hell.

Notice that when he compares the sins that are mentioned in 1 Samuel that the two sins are normally not related to each other and completely opposite in there worldly degrees of right and wrong.

Here are some more scriptures that might stand out and assist us in this thought process.

“For this ye know, that no whoremonger, nor unclean person, nor covetous man, who is an idolater, hath any inheritance in the kingdom of Christ and of God. Let no man deceive you with vain words: for because of these things cometh the wrath of God upon the children of disobedience. Be not ye therefore partakers with them.” Ephesians 5:5-7

“When Christ, who is our life, shall appear, then shall ye also appear with him in glory. Mortify therefore your members which are upon the earth; fornication, uncleanness, inordinate affection, evil concupiscence, and covetousness, which is idolatry: For which things’ sake the wrath of God cometh on the children of disobedience:” Colossians 3:4-6

Some things we cannot just understand naturally without Gods Spirit showing it to us. Even then, some things are not meant for everyone.


*This Girl*


Being thankful is something we can feel from the bottom of our hearts. It gives us a sense of joy that compels us to do small acts of kindness.

Being thankful this Thanksgiving is not about blessing the food you bought or took hours of your day to make. It is about being thankful for what we have and praising God for all of the small and big blessings he sees fit to give us.

I praise God for my family, the family that is with me today and the family that is not. I am thankful for all of the brothers and sisters in Christ God has given to me. I am thankful for all of my coworkers at all of my jobs. I am thankful for having a job, a house, a vehicle to get around in and a bed to sleep in. I am thankful for the animals and children God has put under my care. I am thankful for the money and the ability to cook the meal that my family will be sharing.

I pray that all day the Father hears prayers from all over the world praising him for his greatness and thanking him for what he has given and done for us.

I pray for all the people who do not get to celebrate today with there families. I pray for all of the EMS personnel, military, truckers, store/retail workers, slope workers etc. I pray for y’alls safe return home. May we be thankful for all we have, not wanting more but being content with what we do have, amen.


*This Girl*

We Can’t Change It

It does not matter what we do. What we have in the now we can not change. The past is the past and we can only change the outcome. “We must run from it!” some say, “We must avoid it.” say others, “We must fight it!” they say, “We must sleep it off.” says the rest. One small still voice says “Deal with it.”

Oh, what a struggle and a burden this must be! Here, let me give you some examples. Then I will present you with solutions.

“I do not like what my partner did to me, but I do not want them to leave. So I will just act like it does not matter to me.” “I do not like that my parents chose to move without even asking me my opinion, maybe if I run away they will understand the damage they have done to me.” “I do not understand why my coworkers are so cold to me, but I do not want to make it worse so I will just avoid.” “Their ex just told me that I am incompetent and undeserving of our friendship, I must defend!” “I wish to no longer care for what is happening in the world, I feel depressed. I guess sleeping will make it better.” “They all say I will never do better, they will see that making a statement like that will not hold me down no matter how many agree. I will succeed!” All of these are statements are examples of beginning stages of issues that can be dealt with right where these thoughts begin. The last statement is a strong positive frame of mind. Tackling your issues head on while letting other think what they think.

I have met people before and after difficult struggles similar to the ones described above. Here are some tips on how to handle things and avoid most of the responses shown above.

  • If we run from it then we will never be rid of this problem, it will surely follow us and cause us great grief. You must stop, discuss with the person or people who are causing your grief. If this does not work for your situation then I highly suggest prayer. But do not disregard the discussion part of this suggestion. So much happens when you are honest on how you feel. Statements such as… “that makes me feel uncomfortable.” “I do not understand why ___” “I am really struggling with ___” “I fight to understand ___”. If you struggle with prayer write your prayers down on paper or in a pad. I had to start doing that because I have a wondering mind. Writing my prayers down really helped me focus on what I was asking God so that I could be more specific, because I desired a specific and focused response.
  • Do not avoid the problem. Just because we ignore it, does not make its existence void. It will quietly follow us around like our shadows on a bright sunny day. Waiting to ruin our optimistic thoughts and hopes of freedom. Face it head on, even if you are afraid of it. Nothing will be fixed in avoidance.
  • Nothing is repaired where violence resides. Violence makes the devil happy. Certain situations may require self defense. But to so decisively start a fight over something that could be disregarded or discussed in an elegant graceful set of gallant words is a crime to me.
  • Do not sleep your issues off. Depression can come from choosing many of the above pathways, including this discussed pathway. Over sleeping is also not good for you and can cause you to have more problems.

I hope these words were encouraging and helpful to you. I challenge you to take on one of your issues today and make the best out of it. May God strengthen you in the walk He has set before you, Amen.


*This Girl*

18 Inches

I have heard this sense I was a young girl… that we could miss heaven by 18 inches. That statement means that we could miss heaven because we hold all of Gods knowledge in our mind, never transferring it to our hearts. This is a really hard thought process to comprehend. If you have never accomplished this before then this will be interesting and possibly hold merit for you. I have heard that saying most of my life and only recently discovered the meaning to it. It was a burden lifted once the Father showed me how to do it. So now, I will do my best to convey how to do this wonderful thing to you.

Everything that holds weight or meaning to us we hold dear in our hearts. Anything we read and repeat verbally is held dear in our minds. All of the things we do is either a mindset or a heart condition. Our job is to transfer what is a mindset into a heart condition. In doing this we must decide that it is important beyond reason. So important that we are willing to pass our pride and honor to do it.

One of my biggest mind sets that I had to change into a heart condition was how I felt about my brother. I had a lot of pent up envy and jealousy within me. I felt that my father cared about him more due to spending all of his time with him, especially as we all got older. But none of this mattered, it was not my brothers fault that I felt this way. He was not the cause of how I personally felt; I came to that decision or realization. I have (for the past year or so) spent all of my time and energy trying to make it better with my own actions and works. “I” tried to make it better, it was all “I”, “I”, “I”. Well, that was my first issue. “I” could not make it better…”I” had to give it up. I had to give it to the Father. Not only did I have to give it up but I had to make a decision… a heart felt decision to do what my Father has asked.

“Let love be without dissimulation. Abhor that which is evil; cleave to that which is good. Be kindly affectioned one to another with brotherly love; in honour preferring one another;” Romans 12:9-10

This is what you will have to do.

  • Pray, you have to be in continual prayer ready and willing to do what the Father will ask you. This may be hard, I have faith in you to carry out this task.
  • Pick one thing that you struggle with and pray hard, diligently pray for the Father to teach you how to take things from a mind set and change it into a heart condition. Pray that he takes the burdens from you and shows you what you need to do in the bible to make it right. Whether it be apologizing or something else.
  • Be willing to make the change. Many people say ” Oh yeah, I will do anything for you Lord.” Their hearts are not in their statements and prayers; they will answer for their crimes in heaven. Do what you have to do, this is a battle for our souls. Make it known to your Father your stance for his kingdom!
  • Accept the answer to your question. Many of us turn into Gideon where he was flipping the fleece trying to get a different answer. On one hand you will do what God says, on the other you are really hoping that he is not saying what you are hearing. Do not fight the spirit, do it!

I pray that this information made sense to you and is helpful in your journey. If you still have questions you can contact me or pray really hard about it and accept the Fathers answer.

May the Father lead you in the way that you must go, Amen.


*This Girl*

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