You know, I have found myself thinking often how I wish people had grown up the way I was allowed too. God has been kind to me and I was raised with kindness, love and family. I was given every opportunity to learn what I wanted and given every chance to believe in what I wanted too. What would happen if we all saw things the way God wanted us to see them? I apologize for not writing for awhile but things have been all over the place lately.

There has been chaos in many ways for us all. Makes us wonder what life would be like if we would actually let God show us how things were meant to be. Funny how we are made in God’s image and yet we still have to choose Him to lead us. God truly does give us free choice. It breaks my heart to see the many people who either think they are too far gone or just refuse to sacrifice. You are never too far gone, God forgave the man that was hung next to him and his sins were said to be great (Luke 23:39-43). God called Paul to him and Paul had been killing his to be fellow christians (Acts 9:1-4). If God will forgive these people, then you my friend are never too far gone.

What I wish the most, is that people would experience the Love of Christ and then carry it with them through out their life. I am not perfect my friends, God has shown me what it looks like when his love moves like a fierce tide over a person in a short period of time. It is a beautiful thing my friend. I hope you can see if one day, I hope that y’all experience it in its full glory.

I find myself trying to battle with things often, should I go right or left, do that or not do it, be friends with that person or not. I am sure I am not the only one here who is experiencing this. It hurts doesn’t it? The pain of the unknown, God told us not to worry and yet here we are together. Looking down futures path and pre-determining how it will go. Leaving prayer and never actually leaving the burden of these troubles behind. Asking him to lead us and then leaving prayer with the same stack of problems we claimed to be leaving at the Alter of our prayers; in reality all we do is kneel down open the backpack up and tell him everything that is in there throw it all back in and take it with us while we exit, as Jesus watches us leaving with his hands held out wishing we would just let if all go.

I ask that you, my friends pray for me. I wish I was as bold face to face as I am in these what feels to be one sided letters. God calls the bold, the fearless, the honest, the determined, and so on. And I know God has me for a reason but like so many of you I feel weak as well. God is merciful and continues to lead me on this journey. I look forward to the day where I have surrendered my wants to the point where my spirit is allowed to be as courageous as it truly is, not worried about offending another person. Faithful to the Father and his teachings; may we all grow together in Jesus Christ. Thank you for being here and may you all have a blessed beginning of the school year. Amen

Sincerely,

*This Girl*